sem 3 is a torture, needless to say sem 4 is gonna be a killer!

emotionally disturbed

i've been dreaming alot in these recent days. two of them involve my darling. Out of these 4/5 dreams, there's only one is considered pleasant (as compared to the rest), though it's not very actually. I can't recall much of what I dreamed about. But for what I remember now, this evening i took a nap. The dream was about me preparing to pack all my clothes to get back to Vista. It's kinda real, i don't know why. There's a part about me sitting for the eos but i really can't recall back of how and what happened. I teared. not in the dream. The feeling was like, i am partially imagining something instead of having a dream. It's undescribeale and very confusing. You know, something is spinning around in your brain, which is not under control and it's probably caused by too much of worries. Yeah, i know i should relax a lil. The pressure that i am experiencing right now is what others are having too. It's been quite long since i last had such kind of dream that would make me tear. I just hope this is not a bad sign. God, I am praying to you everyday. Please please please.. Can you hear my prayers?

i am very anxious and i feel really stressed out though if I compare myself to kimmy, andon, hui and maybe teng and mei.. i have two and a half week time to study. but i really think these 3 weeks are not gonna be enough for me to study everything. perhaps it'll just be a scan through. sigh.. why is life so... couldn't it be more wonderful? each day passes so unproductively.. i wasn't able to concentrate fully and memorize the important parts. the shitty thing is i couldn't make it to hit my daily target. i am such a bobo!!!! oh whyyyyyy.....???? i's already 5 am now.. and my target is to finish up 3 more sets of notes.. but it seems impossible.. the parents are going to wake up soon and will start to nag at me for not sleeping. but but but... having his accompany here with me though we are distanced is a bliss (yes, he has his things to do though..) the perasan side of me would just assume that he is staying up is just to be with me.. hahahaha and goshh.. i started to have the 'jealousy' kinda feeling.. just felt that i dislike about something undesirable by most girls.. but in fact, it's just a small lil thing or should I say nothing?? lol alright!! will read a few more slides, at least half of the notes then.. off i'm gonna shut down the pc and lights off!

Good morning people!! have a nice day = ) !!

HAPPY SIXTH MONTH ANNIVERSARY, DARLING!!!

Muackss muackss!!

Love you loads!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO ANDON!! MUACKZZ

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Peeps, I am very worried about myself. yes, again! most of you know me well. I am the very typical me. I am getting stressed up again after almost a week of raya break. I have yet to get my work done. Thank goodness, I've finished my microbio report and have printed it out. Next, my patho report. Gosh, I am not sure whether what I did is the same as what others do. And gosh, there still some parts which I do not know how to do. Who's on earth now can teach me how? I have not been studying for so many days. I planned to utilize this one week break to finish up all my reports, assignments and projects. My Bioinfo! I have to write 3000 words in essay. Yet, I still have not started to do a single research yet. Whattheheckareyoudoingallthiswhilelowwaifun????? haihz.. Arghh why did I choose to study this? And why would I always say I am enjoying what I am studying right now??? tell me please tell me... See, everyone is sleeping now and I should be having a peace of time to study. But I can't help, after one or two sentences I read my mind starts bringing me to some other parts of the world. from thinking of my worries to my cousin's wedding, my many undone works, my chicks, my honeydew and the bed! I feel bad. I promised my cousin sis that I would be able to be her 'jie mui' for her wedding. Now I am breaking her promise. I am only attending her wedding dinner. Sorry, sis!
I miss my boyfriend. Really miss him. Feel like chatting with him via sms. I want to bring us closer. We need to do things that can bond the two of us. I know I am bad in terms of expressing my love to him and I always talk to him in a very bad manner. I feel bad and sorry for both of my dearest friends for what they are going through right now. Well, that is life. Problems that God gives us to sail through, and to learn. I just want to tell them no matter what, you girls have to stay strong and we are here readily to support each other.
I better get back to what I am supposed to do now.

I feel like calling him and tell him Wo Ai Ni! haha! that's so stupid..

i love you to bits and pieces! muackss